I Had a Glimpse of Truth… Why Did It Fade Away?
- Sukhdev Virdee
- May 27
- 3 min read
It comes unexpectedly.
A moment where all seeking stops.
The mind dissolves.
Time disappears.
And what remains is a boundless silence —an undeniable knowing:
I Am That.
You feel it in your bones.
This is it.
This is Reality.
You’ve tasted the Self.
But then…
days pass.
The feeling fades.
The old mind returns.
And with it comes a deeper frustration:
“Why did it go away?”
The Glimpse Was Real — But Not Yours
Let’s begin here:
That moment of clarity… was not a fantasy.
It wasn’t imagination.
It wasn’t the mind.
It was real.
But it didn’t happen to you.
It happened in the absence of you.
And that’s where the trouble begins.
Because once it fades, the seeker-self quickly returns
and tries to possess the experience.
You start asking:
“How can I get it back?”
“What practice will restore it?”
“Maybe I need to go deeper…”
This is the very movement
that veils Truth once again.
You Can’t Own Awakening
Awakening isn’t something you achieve.
It’s not a state you can enter.
It’s not a spiritual high you can maintain.
It’s not even an experience you can remember.
It’s the collapse of the experiencer.
That glimpse you had —it happened in a moment of total openness.
Total non-doing.
It may have happened in meditation, in nature, or even while washing dishes.
But you didn’t make it happen.
So you can’t make it stay.
The ego wants to “lock it in."
But Truth can’t be grasped.
It’s always here — but never in the form the mind expects.
What You’re Seeking (Truth) Is Still Here
The glimpse fades, but the Truth behind it never does.
What fades is your access to it through the mind.
The story comes back.
The “me” returns.
The seeking engine turns on again.
But nothing real was ever lost.
You can’t return to Truth,
because you’ve never actually left it.
The question is:
Will you continue chasing the experience of awakening,
or will you rest in the unchanging Presence beneath all experience?
The Deeper Invitation: Stop Chasing States
Every seeker must eventually face this crossroads:
Do I want Truth —or do I just want the feeling of Truth?
Many become addicted to the memory of the glimpse.
They chase peak states, energetic openings, and flashes of clarity.
They go from teacher to teacher, hoping to recreate the “first time.”
But liberation doesn’t come through repetition.
It comes when the desire for repetition dies.
The glimpse was not the goal.
It was a doorway.
Now the question is:
Will you walk through it without turning back?
From Glimpse to Abidance
The journey isn’t about chasing the next high.
It’s about stabilizing in what never moves.
From visiting silence…
to living as silence.
This is what I guide seekers toward —
Not more glimpses,
but a steady dissolution of the false self.
If you’ve had moments of Truth, but struggle to abide in them,
I invite you to go deeper with me.
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Nothing true is ever lost.
Only the one who thought it could be lost… appears to return.
But even that is just a passing cloud in the sky of Being.
Stay as the sky.
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