I Understand Nonduality Intellectually. Why Do I Still Suffer?

I meet many seekers who say:

“I’ve read the Upanishads.”

“I understand Advaita Vedanta.”

“I know the Self is all there is.”

“I get that there’s no separate ‘me.’”

And then they whisper the part they’re ashamed to admit:

“…But I still suffer.”

This is not a contradiction.

It’s a turning point.

Because what you know intellectually

and what you live existentially

are not the same.

Spiritual Knowledge Isn’t the Same as Freedom

Reading about the ocean isn’t the same as swimming in it.

Memorizing scriptures is not the same as merging with the Self.

The mind loves to accumulate concepts.

It studies nonduality like a philosophy.

It quotes sages, understands pointers, even teaches others.

But all of that can happen

while the ego remains completely untouched.

There’s a part of you — subtle, clever —

that uses spiritual understanding

as a way to avoid direct seeing.

It builds a fortress of knowledge

around a center that still feels separate.

And that center still fears, still desires, still suffers.

Suffering Means the “Me” Still Believes It’s Real

Pain is natural.

Suffering is personal.

It arises when something in you still believes:

“This shouldn’t be happening to me.”

“I should be further along.”

“Why am I still stuck?”

This subtle ‘I’ —

the one who thinks it’s enlightened, or on the path to enlightenment —

is still at the center of your story.

And so suffering continues.

Understanding Doesn’t Equal Embodiment

The scriptures are clear:

Freedom is not knowing the Self.

Freedom is being the Self —

with no one left to claim it.

Intellectual understanding is the first step.

But the journey is from the head… to the heart… to the gut.

From concept…

to devotion…

to death.

Yes, death —

of the seeker, the knower, the one trying to ‘get it.’

This is not poetic talk.

It is a radical dissolution of the inner identity

that hides behind even your most spiritual ideas.

So What’s the Way Through?

There’s no technique that can force awakening.

But here’s what I suggest:

Stop trying to be “nondual.”

Let your knowledge burn in the fire of direct experience.

Face the moments of suffering without resistance.

Watch who is suffering…

…and ask, again and again:

Who is this “I”?

Not as a mantra.

Not as theory.

But as a living fire — a naked inquiry into the illusion you’ve always taken to be yourself.

Let the answer come not from the mind,

but from silence.

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I guide sincere souls who are tired of concepts

and ready to dissolve the one who thinks it “knows.”

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There’s a way beyond knowing.

It begins with unknowing.

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Freedom is not something you will understand.

It is what remains

when there’s no one left to understand anything.

Rest there.