What If I Don’t Feel Worthy of Awakening?
- Sukhdev Virdee
- Jul 6
- 3 min read
There’s a silent voice
hidden deep in many seekers:
“This is not for me.
Maybe others will realize Truth, but not me.
I’m too flawed. Too broken. Too unworthy.”
And so the seeker walks the path
with hope in their eyes
and shame in their heart.
Let me say this clearly:
You don’t need to be worthy of awakening.
You already are.
Not because of what you’ve done,
but because of what you are.
The Illusion of Worth
Worth is a human idea.
It belongs to the mind—
which measures, compares, ranks, and judges.
It says:
“You’re only worthy if you’re pure.”
“You must meditate perfectly.”
“You must be devoted like the saints.”
“You must fix your past first.”
But the Self does not measure worth.
It does not compare.
It does not look at your past,
your flaws,
your history of mistakes.
It looks at you and says:
“You are Me.”
Where Did This Feeling Come From?
This sense of unworthiness often begins in childhood.
Someone told you,
intentionally or unconsciously:
“You’re not enough.”
“You have to earn love.”
“You must achieve something to be valuable.”
And over time,
you began believing it.
Even your spiritual path became another attempt
to finally be “good enough.”
But what if that belief is the only thing
standing in the way of what’s already yours?
What if the door to Truth
was always open,
but you thought you needed a key?
Truth Isn’t Earned — It’s Recognized
This path is not a reward
for the spiritually advanced.
It’s a mirror.
And the mirror doesn’t care
how messy your reflection is.
It doesn’t ask for credentials.
It doesn’t need you to be holy.
It simply reflects what’s already here.
Even your feelings of unworthiness
arise in That which is already free.
So don’t wait
until you feel ready.
Don’t wait
until you feel clean, or clear, or spiritual.
Start now.
With your doubt.
With your pain.
With your trembling hands.
Because the one who doubts
is not who you are.
You Are Worthy Because You Exist
Look around.
The trees do not ask if they are worthy to bloom.
The sun does not check if it has earned the right to shine.
The ocean doesn’t apologize for its waves.
They simply are.
Just like you.
You exist.
You are conscious.
You are aware.
That is enough.
You are already the Self—
not because you’ve proven it,
but because it’s the only thing that’s ever been true.
Let This Be a Turning Point
What if, instead of trying to become worthy,
you simply dropped the question?
What if you stopped trying to heal yourself into worthiness?
What if you just sat still…
and let yourself be exactly as you are?
In that moment,
the veil lifts.
And you realize:
There was no gate.
No barrier.
No test to pass.
Only this—
what you are,
right now.
Free.
Unbound.
Loved by Existence itself.
The Most Beautiful Realizations Come in Darkness
I’ve sat with seekers
who wept as they said,
“But I’m not pure enough… I’m not ready.”
And I’ve seen their hearts break open
in that exact moment.
Because even in their doubt,
they were sincere.
Even in their shame,
they were listening.
Even in their mess,
Grace was moving.
So don’t wait for clarity to come.
Don’t wait to become the perfect student.
Just turn inward.
Silently.
Gently.
Lovingly.
That’s enough.
🌿 Come As You Are
The 5 Illusions That Keep You from Awakening – And The One Truth That Sets You Free.
It’s not about becoming someone new. It’s about remembering what you’ve always been.
This is a path for the sincere, not the perfect. If you feel called, walk with me.
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