Why Can’t I Awaken No Matter How Hard I Try?
- Sukhdev Virdee
- May 26
- 2 min read
I see this question hidden in the eyes of many seekers:
“Why can’t I awaken, no matter how much I meditate, study, or surrender?”
You’ve read the books.
Watched the teachers.
Attended the satsangs.
You’ve practiced mindfulness, chanted mantras, and sat in long hours of silence.
And still… something feels missing.
Awakening remains distant — like a horizon that keeps moving.
I understand.
Because for years, I was trapped in the very same seeking.
The Hidden Trap of Trying Too Hard
Here’s the first truth:
The effort to awaken often becomes the very obstacle to awakening.
The spiritual ego is sneaky.
It takes your genuine longing and turns it into a mission.
A project.
A personal goal.
And suddenly, awakening becomes something “you” want —which reinforces the illusion that there is still a you who needs to awaken.
But awakening isn’t earned.
It’s not a reward for doing everything right.
It’s what’s already here
— when the one trying so hard
finally breaks down and lets go.
Are You Ready to Stop?
The seeker exhausts itself.
And that exhaustion isn’t failure —it’s grace.
When all your techniques stop working,when even Advaita feels like mental gymnastics,
when the fire becomes unbearable…
You’re closer than ever.
Because awakening is not a peak experience.
It’s not bliss.
It’s not ecstasy.
It’s absence — the disappearance of the one who thought they had to do something.
The question is not “Why can’t I awaken?”
It’s:
Who is asking?
You Cannot Awaken. But Awakening Can Happen.
If you’re honest, you’ll see this:
Your mind wants to awaken, but your heart just wants peace.
So start there.
Not with effort.
Not with knowledge.
But with radical surrender.
Let yourself fall.
Not upward into light,
but downward into nothing.
You don’t need more practice.
You need less resistance to what already is.
What Helped Me Drop the Struggle
For me, what changed everything was realizing that the ego itself was wearing a spiritual mask.
I wasn’t trying to awaken.
I was trying to be someone who had awakened.
And that someone —
needed to die.
It wasn’t easy.
But it was simple.
And once I stopped trying,
Truth revealed itself
without a single word.
Free Guide for Seekers Who Are Stuck
If you’ve been on this path for a while…
and feel like you’re hitting the same wall again and again…
I wrote something for you.
A short, potent guide called:
👉 “The 5 Illusions That Keep You from Awakening — And the One Truth That Sets You Free”
It’s free.
And it might just crack the illusion wide open.
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If You’re Ready to Drop the Struggle…
I work with sincere seekers one-on-one, and offer deeper online programs that go far beyond techniques — into direct realization.
If that’s what you’re looking for:
You don’t have to do this alone.
But you do have to stop doing.
Love,
Sukhdev
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