Why You Still Feel Separate — Even After Awakening

You had the experience.

The veil lifted.

The mind stopped.

The world dissolved into golden light.

There was no self.

No other.

Only This.

You were Home.

And then —

The next morning, you were back.

Separate again.

Pulled into thought.

Chasing the silence that had kissed you just hours before.

What happened?

Why does the sense of separation return,

even after such a holy glimpse?

Let’s talk about it — not from theory,

but from the heart of my own journey.

Awakening Is Real… But It Isn’t the End

I’ve had moments when the "I" vanished.

Only pure Being remained.

Timeless. Vast. Unspeakably familiar.

In those moments, there was no problem.

No seeker. No seeking.

But the mind is a faithful servant —

it returns, and with it,

the old sensation of being a person looking out at a world.

This is not failure.

It’s not regression.

It’s the dance of Grace.

Because awakening isn’t a finish line.

It’s an invitation.

A doorway.

Not the house.

The Return of Separation Is the Mind’s Habit

The body-mind has been conditioned to perceive separation

since infancy.

You were trained to say: “This is me. That is not me.”

And even after a glimpse of Truth,

that conditioning doesn’t vanish overnight.

It reasserts itself.

Thoughts come.

Stories arise.

The "me" slips back in — quiet at first, then louder.

But here’s the difference now:

you’ve seen through it.

You know the “me” isn’t real.

And so, its return doesn’t hold the same power.

Unless…

you believe it shouldn’t return.

The Real Trap Is Thinking Separation Should Be Gone

This is subtle.

After awakening, many seekers suffer not from separation itself —

but from the expectation that it should be gone.

They measure every moment against the peak experience.

And when the mind reappears, they panic:

“I’ve lost it. I’ve failed. I’m not there anymore.”

But who is speaking those words?

Who is measuring this moment?

It’s the same ego —

trying to co-opt awakening for its own self-image.

The real insight is this:

Separation may appear, but it’s not personal.

It’s just conditioning playing out in awareness.

And you are That —

the untouched witness.

Stop Chasing the Peak. Return to the Root.

The Truth wasn’t in the feeling.

It wasn’t in the bliss.

It wasn’t in the mind stopping.

It was in the Seeing.

That unchanging presence

which saw it all arise — and dissolve.

You are not the awakened state.

You are the one to whom awakening appears.

Let the states come.

Let the states go.

Rest in what you cannot lose.

Love Even the Separation

Yes, even that.

Even the ache of distance.

The longing for God.

The pain of being “back in the body.”

It, too, is sacred.

It, too, is included.

Because the separation is only ever imagined.

And when you stop resisting it —

you see: even that sensation is held in God.

You don’t have to push it away.

You only have to see it,

from the stillness of what you are.

And suddenly, it’s not separation anymore.

It’s just another wave

in the infinite sea.

This Is the Real Integration

Not living in some high state.

But living simply —

as Presence.

Answering emails.

Feeding your child.

Sitting in silence.

Walking through grief.

All of it

as the One.

This is what I share in my courses.

This is what I walk through with seekers every day.

The end of seeking isn’t the end of living.

It’s the beginning of living without confusion.

An Invitation for the Sincere

If you’ve glimpsed the Truth

and feel like you’ve “lost” it…

You haven’t.

The one who “lost” it

was never real.

Come back to the One that never moves.

Download my free guide —

The 5 Illusions That Keep You from Awakening — And The One Truth That Sets You Free.

It’s a simple pointer. But it may end a lifetime of confusion.

Or, if you’re ready to integrate this deeply,

Explore my courses and 1:1 sessions.

Let’s walk this together — gently, clearly, honestly.

You don’t need another awakening.

You need to stop believing you’ve left it.