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Spiritual Awakening & Realization
Insights and stories about the spiritual awakening process — including ego dissolution, breakthroughs, and integration on the path to Self-Realization.
The Fear of Disappearing: Why Awakening Feels Like Dying
There comes a moment, often unspoken, where the spiritual seeker gets close enough to the edge of Truth— and panic sets in. It’s not a...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 83 min read
Why Do I Keep Forgetting Who I Am?
It happens quietly. You have a glimpse—so clear, so vast. You are Presence. Awareness. Untouched. And then… You’re arguing with someone....
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 83 min read
Why Is God Silent When I Call?
I remember the nights I cried out to God. Not in devotion. In desperation. “Where are You?” “Why won’t You answer me?” “Don’t You see I’m...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 73 min read
The Illusion of “I’m Not There Yet”
There’s a quiet suffering I see in almost every seeker. It’s not loud. It doesn’t scream. It whispers… all day long. “I’m not there yet.”...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 63 min read
When You’re Tired of Seeking
There comes a moment on the path when everything feels… tired. Not the body, but the soul. You’re not burned out from doing too much....
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 63 min read
Why Knowing Is Not Enough
For years, I gathered spiritual knowledge like rare pearls. Scriptures. Quotes. Teachings. Concepts. I could explain nonduality. I could...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 53 min read
When Love Becomes Silence
In the beginning, I thought love was a feeling. Warmth. Sweetness. A glowing heart. A deep connection with another. Later, I thought it...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 53 min read
Why You Still Feel Separate — Even After Awakening
You had the experience. The veil lifted. The mind stopped. The world dissolved into golden light. There was no self. No other. Only This....
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 43 min read
You Don’t Have to Feel Peaceful to Be Free
There are days when the body feels heavy. The mind stirs with old echoes. Sadness visits. Irritation rises. And still — I remain free....
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 43 min read
The Seeker Must Vanish – Not Succeed
For years, I thought I was getting closer. Every retreat, every book, every practice… felt like progress. I was becoming more spiritual....
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 33 min read
God Is Not Separate From You — The Illusion of Distance
For most of my life, I thought I was moving toward God. Through rituals, through mantras, through devotion, through longing… Every...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 34 min read
The Fire That Burns the False: What Grace Really Means
We all want Grace. But rarely do we recognize Her when She arrives. We imagine Grace as gentleness. Ease. A soft hand upon the shoulder....
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 23 min read
Why Doesn’t God Answer Me When I Pray?
I’ve heard this question more times than I can count. I’ve lived it more times than I care to remember. There were moments in my life...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 23 min read
Why Do I Feel So Alone on This Path?
There’s a silence that fills your world when you begin to wake up. Not the serene kind— but the kind that echoes with absence. Your...
Sukhdev Virdee
Jun 13 min read
Why Do I Keep Having Spiritual Highs... and Then Crashing?
There was a time I felt on top of the world. Floating in peace. Radiating joy. Awake. Untouched. Free. Then, without warning, it...
Sukhdev Virdee
May 313 min read
I Want Awakening, But I’m Scared of Losing Myself
I hear this more than you’d expect. “I want to awaken… but I’m scared.” “Will I lose who I am?” “Will I stop caring about life?” “Will I...
Sukhdev Virdee
May 303 min read
Why Do I Feel So Alone on This Path?
There’s something no one warns you about on the spiritual path: The loneliness. Not just loneliness in the outer sense— but a deeper,...
Sukhdev Virdee
May 293 min read
I Understand Nonduality Intellectually. Why Do I Still Suffer?
I meet many seekers who say: “I’ve read the Upanishads.” “I understand Advaita Vedanta.” “I know the Self is all there is.” “I get that...
Sukhdev Virdee
May 282 min read
I Had a Glimpse of Truth… Why Did It Fade Away?
It comes unexpectedly. A moment where all seeking stops. The mind dissolves. Time disappears. And what remains is a boundless silence —an...
Sukhdev Virdee
May 273 min read
Why Can’t I Awaken No Matter How Hard I Try?
I see this question hidden in the eyes of many seekers: “Why can’t I awaken, no matter how much I meditate, study, or surrender?” You’ve...
Sukhdev Virdee
May 262 min read
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